Twisting…..Pulling…. June 24, 2009

And this day, she wanted to quit. If she could stop looking out of the window for just one second. If she could just stop thinking about the things that she truly wanted and focused on the things that she must do to get it. If she could just stop letting her heart overrule her mind. Maybe, just maybe this day, she would not have wanted to quit. There may be pain greater than that of unfulfillment, but at this moment there was no greater agony. Ever fought a tear? Ever fought a fear? Ever fought a desire to set everything around you on fire? She did today! She fought through the minutes. She fought through the thoughts. She fought and is still fighting, because it’s frightening. It’s frightening thinking of giving in, quitting, never reaching. She is strong and as long as her heart beats still speaks, it will speak words of encouragement. With ever boomp boomp, her heart says, “You’re still here”, “Keep going”, “This can not and will not kill you”, “You are getting stronger”. She believes that her heart has always been kind to her mind, but they tend to divide when it comes to how they should reach the sky. Then they both cry b/c they can’t coincide. But hope lives on inside of her, knowing that GOD is a redeemer. She know that Jesus is a Savior and intercessor. She know that she…she is a gift to this world. Once a little girl, now a woman. A woman who knows that there is purpose for moments that inspire quitting. A woman who will fight and continue to fight towards that goal, fight towards that fulfillment, fight for Life.

She told me to FIGHT FOR MY LIFE!