I should…just..let YOU love me April 10, 2009

Dear Lord,
I should just let you love me
I should just sit still long enough for you to hold me
I should just let you come in and treat me
Diagnose me and then treat me
I should let you heal the loneliness
I should I just do what you say I should
Why is this so hard for me?
Maybe because I can not see you
Maybe because I can not hold you back
But I’m thinking that if I let you in and love me
I’ll see things that I’ve never seen
and felt things that I’ve never felt
I should just let you love me
I should just let you love me and heal
I should just let you coat my heart with your blood
I should just love you back
Why
Is
This
So
Hard
I should just let you teach me
I should let you come and and help me let go
I should just let you show me the unconditionally love
that I have shown to fake friends, to family members who do not fully appreciate it
I should just love you more than I love them
I should just let you love me
I should just let you feed me
I should just forget about what I am seeing in the world and let you help me
I should just let YOU love me
Instead of seeking that love
Seeking that friendship
Instead of seeking here
I should just let you love me
I should just pray to you
I should just try to remember that you are there and you do hear me
You do feel me
You do LOVE ME
I should just LOVE YOU
I should just LOVE